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back from a mild meltdown
so long story short, i can still use tumblr from my desktop but not from my laptop. so, basically about three weeks ago i just been feeling like shit. i was questioning my direction in life, my love life and all aspects of my future. i’ve just been overwhelmed by work and again my love life. i don’t usually put myself down and make me feel like shit that i’m alone but at times i get these relapses that reminds me that i’m alone. i mean, i realized that with every girl that i like, i always end up as the “best friend” in these shitty situations. for example, a while ago this girl who i did like for a while was talking to me about how her boyfriend treats her like shit, i told her how i felt and that she shouldn’t talk to him. i haven’t hear much from her since. she’s still with the dude as much as i know. i then kept thinking about similar times where i get the less desired ending to something. there are so many stories and i know if i bring them up again i’m gonna feel like shit. i basically had a meltdown. so for three weeks i became drunk, high, and the combination of both. i just didn’t want to think about said girl and all of the other girls i liked at some point with terrible partners. i knew once my classes started i knew i had to clean up and just deal with this shit thats been bothering me for weeks, not to mention my hangovers and tiredness was fucking me up at work. so i sheltered into listening and playing music about nothing and laziness and having nothing but being contempt with it. so i guess that’s where i am right now. i don’t have much, but i’m contempt with it. i’m not as sad as i was before, and it’s for the better. it’s pretty ironic though. when my dad found out about me having a job he said i would have more problems. but now i don’t really have any right now, and that rules.
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crucialxyouth said:
let’s play songs about shitty girls
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